I’ve been taking Valerian Root for social anxiety and it works but sometimes it makes me too tired and doesnt work as good as i want it to…probably because i take random doses at different times :p

how should i take these for anxiety? it says to take 3 pills (1.2 grams), but doesnt give a time…im sure thats for insomnia though…when and how much should i take for anxiety?

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But I can’t do either…. I feel like my life has been a disaster. Please read this, please help me!

-I’m a 20 year old male
-I dropped out of school when I was 14 (got a GED when I was 17)
-I am not in school now, & I have no job..
-For the past 2 years I’ve lived with my mom & my autistic brother in a small 2 bedroom apt. in the city
-I sleep on the couch in the livingroom
-I have practically no personal items; very few clothes
-I have a poor relationship with both my mother & brother; we barely talk, sometimes we go days w/o saying anything to eachother & my mom mostly just yells at me for not doing anything with my life. She’s been unemployed for a while now & really needs me to get a job… & I honestly wish I could! But I can barely take care of my extremely basic needs right now…
-I have ZERO friends; I haven’t had any real friends since I was 13
-I have gone months without saying more than 10 words a day
-I have social anxiety when talking to any stranger
-I have not had any meaningful emotional relationships since I had friends
-I have spent the last 6 years alone, inside, pretty much just pacing back & forth thinking.
-I worked for my dad when I dropped out of school, but he was a sociopath & never paid me. He owes me over 18K. I avoided contact with my mom during this period; she had kicked me out of her house when she found out I dropped out of school. Now I avoid all contact with my dad
-I have frequently reccurring major depressive episodes.
-Insomnia & hyposonmia
-Fluctuating eating patterns
-Fluctuating exercise patterns
-I feel like I am very immature and have boyish-like characteristics.. Unattractive I think, anyway
-I consider myself somewhat intelligent & bright,DEFINITELYy much still ignorant & uneducated
-I have poor communication skills (due to lack of education & NO ONE TO PRACTICE WITH)
-Unkempt self-appearance (not too bad, but I DEFFINITELY neglect myself)
-Bad, crooked teeth
-Very pale skin with acne
-Probably about 20 lbs overweight (or too fat)
-Lack self-discipline
-Trying to read more books lately to increase my knowledge & expand my vocabulary
-My favorite thing to do… is go to therapy. Sad..

I feel my parents have done a really poor job of taking care of me, though I think I might be responsible for part of this because I never "cried for the help I needed" I felt guilty whenever I asked for anything & thought that my parents would just know the best way to take care of me (… very stupid of me..). So now I guess I have severe self neglect problems, maladaptive avoidant behaviors, constantly contemplate suicide…, & don’t know how to put my life back together… except go to therapy for a long time & sort this out…
The only diagnosis I have received is Neurotic Depression; my therapist doesn’t really "do diagnosis".

I really need to get my life on track… I’m so lost & confused & lonely…. I really wish I could cry right now…

I keep thinking I should kill myself because of how far off course my life is & how much I am constanly stressed out, never having any moments of relief… In my head I am always trying to decide between living & trying my hardest to get my life on track & make something of myself & find happiness or giving up & commiting suicide because I think trying my hardest won’t be good enough & I’ll end up exhausted, miserable, & unhappy till I die… I’m really not sure I should even bother with this life anymore.. My future seems so bleak and futile… & needlessly painful. I should just put myself out of my misery….

I really just need someone to listen to me and offer some help right now.. One hour a week with my therapist seems to only be a TEASE! to me….

I want to get back to having friends & girlfriends (or one I mean), I want to get into school & get educated, I want to have a decent career…

Any advice is appreciated. SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG & INARTICULATELY WRITTEN.
*******!!!!! ****!!!!! I just want some advice!!! There is no one I can talk to…. I’m just that much of a loser… Tell me who I could talk to!!!! My therapist doesn’t have the time, she’s implied to me that I ask for enough attention already…

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But I can’t do either…. I feel like my life has been a disaster. Please read this, please help me!

-I’m a 20 year old male
-I dropped out of school when I was 14 (got a GED when I was 17)
-I am not in school now, & I have no job..
-For the past 2 years I’ve lived with my mom & my autistic brother in a small 2 bedroom apt. in the city
-I sleep on the couch in the livingroom
-I have practically no personal items; very few clothes
-I have a poor relationship with both my mother & brother; we barely talk, sometimes we go days w/o saying anything to eachother & my mom mostly just yells at me for not doing anything with my life. She’s been unemployed for a while now & really needs me to get a job… & I honestly wish I could! But I can barely take care of my extremely basic needs right now…
-I have ZERO friends; I haven’t had any real friends since I was 13
-I have gone months without saying more than 10 words a day
-I have social anxiety when talking to any stranger
-I have not had any meaningful emotional relationships since I had friends
-I have spent the last 6 years alone, inside, pretty much just pacing back & forth thinking.
-I worked for my dad when I dropped out of school, but he was a sociopath & never paid me. He owes me over 18K. I avoided contact with my mom during this period; she had kicked me out of her house when she found out I dropped out of school. Now I avoid all contact with my dad
-I have frequently reccurring major depressive episodes.
-Insomnia & hyposonmia
-Fluctuating eating patterns
-Fluctuating exercise patterns
-I feel like I am very immature and have boyish-like characteristics.. Unattractive I think, anyway
-I consider myself somewhat intelligent & bright,DEFINITELYy much still ignorant & uneducated
-I have poor communication skills (due to lack of education & NO ONE TO PRACTICE WITH)
-Unkempt self-appearance (not too bad, but I DEFFINITELY neglect myself)
-Bad, crooked teeth
-Very pale skin with acne
-Probably about 20 lbs overweight (or too fat)
-Lack self-discipline
-Trying to read more books lately to increase my knowledge & expand my vocabulary
-My favorite thing to do… is go to therapy. Sad..

I feel my parents have done a really poor job of taking care of me, though I think I might be responsible for part of this because I never "cried for the help I needed" I felt guilty whenever I asked for anything & thought that my parents would just know the best way to take care of me (… very stupid of me..). So now I guess I have severe self neglect problems, maladaptive avoidant behaviors, constantly contemplate suicide…, & don’t know how to put my life back together… except go to therapy for a long time & sort this out…
The only diagnosis I have received is Neurotic Depression; my therapist doesn’t really "do diagnosis".

I really need to get my life on track… I’m so lost & confused & lonely…. I really wish I could cry right now…

I keep thinking I should kill myself because of how far off course my life is & how much I am constanly stressed out, never having any moments of relief… In my head I am always trying to decide between living & trying my hardest to get my life on track & make something of myself & find happiness or giving up & commiting suicide because I think trying my hardest won’t be good enough & I’ll end up exhausted, miserable, & unhappy till I die… I’m really not sure I should even bother with this life anymore.. My future seems so bleak and futile… & needlessly painful. I should just put myself out of my misery….

I really just need someone to listen to me and offer some help right now.. One hour a week with my therapist seems to only be a TEASE! to me….

I want to get back to having friends & girlfriends (or one I mean), I want to get into school & get educated, I want to have a decent career…

Any advice is appreciated. SORRY THIS WAS SO LONG & INARTICULATELY WRITTEN.

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No matter how long I sleep 7 hours, 8 hours, 9 hours, or even 10 hours… I loath getting out of bed because I’m still exhausted. Can Paxil be causing me not to get a good night’s sleep?
I’m taking 10 mgs for mild depression and moderate social anxiety. Both my depression and social anxiety are alleviated, but I still can’t get a good night’s sleep.

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Ok so I take 2 tablets of 25mg benadryl and sometimes it works perfectly and other times it doesnt do anything. Why is this?
im using it for social anxiety. And somedays it works VERY well and other days it doesnt work at all. WHy is that? And I only use it like twice a week.

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General advice is welcome, if you don’t want to read my two mini-essays, but still have advice for people with problems such as mine, just go ahead and answer. I understand some people don’t want to read it all.

My insomnia status: I wake up 6-10 times throughout the night, sometimes to pee, sometimes for no apparent reason at all. It usually takes me anywhere from 5-45 min to fall back asleep after each one, and that’s after my usual hour or two to fall asleep in the first place. I set aside 8 hours each night for sleeping, but get between 2-5 hours per night. I have tried many of the little lifestyle changes you can make (i.e. more exercise, cutting out stimulating activities for the last few hours before bed, no caffeine etc) and though sometimes it seems like they help, i still cannot consistently sleep well.

My social anxiety: basically I’m not afraid of talking to other people, if I feel I have something on my mind and worthwhile to say. However I am terrified of small talk simply because It’s not something I think about on my own, and really don’t know how to come up with conversation on the spot. Any social situation that involves me having to make small talk will make me start to feel sick thinking about it. People always tell me I seem either distant or really nervous, because my mind always either freaks out or spaces out in those situations.

When researching I found one of the causes of social anxiety is lack of sleep. And alternatively, curing any anxiety can also be a big part of curing insomnia. Lol contradictory

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I have been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder on two occasions and I am not sure how to take it.
I have racing thoughts, mood swings, general anxiety, social anxiety,….

I am afraid to get close to people because I am concerned they will not approve of me when my disorder "kicks in".
What to do? What do you do?

Oh, and my doctor gave me Lithium (haven’t started yet). Is anyone taking this? Does it work? What works for you? Are you embarrassed to have Bipolar Disorder?

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I have depression, adhd, and anxiety

I have been dealing with it all of my life at the age of six I was labeled and introduced to paxil and seroquil for sleep my mom not knowing what to do didn’t fill the prescription for seroquil and substituted it with benadryl and sleepy time tea that worked for a while but I quickly built a tolerance. I started paxil at age six because I was a depressed child with anxiety and sever agitation. The paxil took effect helped my depression but severely increased my anxiety and made me irritable. I was on and off medication the benefits were not worth the side effects. We decided to take me off medication until I was older if it was necessary. I had on and off insomnia all my life we would treat it with benadryl but honestly that did not put a dent in it. When I was younger I had social anxiety issues I would not go near people I did not know. The only people I would trust was my family and my best friend Kassie my next door neighbor. Kids from my class would always try to talk to me outside of school at the grocery store or after the bell rang I would avoid them at all cost. I honestly believe I wouldn’t take the chance to befriend them because I was taught at school all strangers are bad stranger danger. I had an anxiety disorder so little things like that would rule my life. As time went by I realized that I needed to communicate with people and make friends. I became more assertive and happier. Every grade I was closer to being a normal kid whatever that is. By the seventh grade I had many friends. Everything was going good. But my perfect grades started to slip. I went from all A’s to all C’s and eventually I was failing. I had not changed any study habits I just couldn’t make heads or tails of the work. I told my mom I was spacing out I would be doing the work and my mind would wander away and I would just stare out into space. I would be on the same problem as everyone else go into lola land look up at the overhead and all of a sudden there five problems ahead. I went to my doctor for a check up my mom mentioned what was happening to the doctor. We got a referral to see a neurologist and found out I was having absence seizures. I was put on topamax and lost nearly 20 pounds I got a little underweight. We scheduled an EEG without the medication to see if I had any seizure activity I didn’t thank god I was able to discontinue the top Amax. The neurologist gave me a test and said I had many symptoms of GAD and ADHD. She started me on focal in 20mg and lexapro 10mg. I was doing ten times better in school and was happier than ever but me and anti depressants don’t go together well I developed tics a discontinued the lexapro they instantly were gone. My anxiety freaked out I don’t know what happened I blamed the focal in and started to skip them and give them to my friends. I was going crazy the closest thing that describes the way I felt and still feel is the symptoms of severe akathisia it can cause extreme anxiety and uneasiness to the point that suicide may result. Akathisia can occur for no apparent reason or may be induced by certain drugs. If you’ve ever paced a hospital floor waiting for bad or good news about a sick or ailing loved one, or have been so nervous about something you couldn’t sleep, you’d have a good sense of what akathisia feels like. Some people develop the condition when given SSRIs. In this state, people are more likely to kill themselves or to try than they are when they are in a depressed state. They feel they must do something to make the restlessness stop, because there isn’t a single second of rest from it. This is exactly what I feel like they told me I don’t have it but I can’t imagine something else that would cause the exact same symptoms. I had these feelings and the doctor was no help I took matters in my own hands and started drugs. I took six of my dad’s 10mg valium hoping for just a few minutes of relief. I got just that and a trip to the hospital. I can’t honestly say that it wasn’t worth the relief. I still feel like this I don’t know how to fix it or if it can be fixed it has made my life living hell. Id rather die than keep on feeling like this I would be dead if I didn’t have family to worry about. The only couple of things that help are currently illegal or unavailable. I honestly have tried almost every anxiety medicine the only legal thing that puts a dent in this feeling is valium. Xanax and colonzapam actually make it worse. The only thing I have ever come into contact with that completely rids this horrible feeling is marijuana but medical marijuana is currently illegal in Texas. Honestly smoking it anyway is worth the risk of getting into trouble but I care for my mom to much to drag her down with me. I don’t see one thing wrong with medical marijuana if someone needs this healing herb for
Why not let them if people can use heroin like opiates for pain why not let people who need it use non addictive marijuana. Unli
I would like to know whats wrong with me and if i have akathsia or a akathsia mimicing disorder

is there anything that can help rid me of the symptoms

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hey my name is ethan ofc and i have diagnosed chaotic disstorted thinking,deep depression,insomnia,social anxiety…does anyone think that my disstorted chaotic thinking could lead to these symptoms?the first counseler i seen said i was the worst she had ever seen and kind of described me as a sociopath and i have chaotic thinking..well she stopped talking to me because i could always prove her wrong and have plenty of facts to back it up in the past and the future…now im seein a vietnam war vet and he has been counseling for 31 years and he sais i am the most interesting person he has ever met because i love helping people and i think to much about everything and i am interested in knowing everything about society and history like the first old testament was found in 220 a.d on a old dead seascroll if i remember right and it was genisis if i can member right but look it up if you dont believe me i have read the whole bible to and many books even though im only 17 and a good one i read not to long ago was kevin mitnick..he was one of the most controversial hackers in the world and was one of the best but he was banned and imprisoned and he wasnt even allowed to be close to a phone or computer because of what he can do.my bro is basically a genius he can hack into nasa and shut the whole system down if he wanted to…i admire him and one day hope to be as smart as he is..im sorry i get off subject alot and atm im reading 2 rachel scott books about columbine that was gaven to me by her mother for free…the second i got them i read them and stayed up and read both of them all through the night i didnt go to bed till 4am.now i am reading a rick warren self help book and about christ and so far it is good but i am more interested in science and technology and history of our people..i have seen and read more books probably 2 times more than my parents put together or atleast they say because every movie that comes on they want to watch i have seen a hundred times already except westerns not really into them tbh.and i member a member of the irc who hacked into a system where top secret stuff that cost 100,000 dollars it was a program that was supposed to be secret but was posted on the irc…well im sorry for saying all this stuff just a way to show you of 1/100 of what im thinking of.almost all of my family has been in the military to .my grandpa was in military intelligence and i have a friend whos uncle hacked into nasa and downloaded files but he wasnt fast enough in cleaning up and in less then a hour he was surrounded by cops at his house…he got 5 years in a state prison and was also offered a job by nasa.seriously go to whataburger or starbucks and do that shit it will save you alot of hassle…well does anyone think that my chaotic thinking could be causing me to not be able to sleep and be in deep depression?any opinions?i cannot shut my brain off no matter how hard i try and when i work i work hard ive had a seizure and 2 blackouts helping people for free because i love to work really hard 100percent all the time even if it is for free…i have a feeling im also going to die young like end up taking a bullet for someone or saving someones life its not that im trying to be a hero it is just what i think is right.well if anyone could tell me if my chaotic thinking is causing other probs i would be really happy and it would be a big relief off my chest.i like the movie good will thinking to with matt damon and ben affleck in it.i kinda think that character is me in a way.

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It is New Year’s Eve and I’m at home drinking alone. I’ve never had a girlfriend, and I don’t have any real friends.

I graduated high school in the top of my class, but I have severe social anxiety that makes me very nervous around people.

I have a rare skin condition that causes me to develop hives when I sweat. I have seen many doctors and been diagnosed with cholinergic urticaria. There is no cure, but Benadryls provide me a few hours relief.

I used to pass my time playing online games. My family moved, and at my new house I do not have a good internet connection. Now I have nothing to do.

I have insomnia. When I go to bed at 4 am, I do not fall asleep until 6 am, even after downing a couple Benadryls.

I need something to do. I don’t care how much I get paid. I only spend money on gas, Benadryl and cigarettes. I’d like an apartment some day but I still live with my parents.

I considered getting a cashier position, but I think the stress and physical trembling from talking to people all day would be too much for me.

Am I making a mistake by applying for a night stocking job?

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How can taking a benzo benefit you if one of the major side effects is drowsiness? I’ve heard these are great for social anxiety. However, I’ve always wondered how they can be effective if they are just going to make you tired. Wouldn’t that make you ‘less’ social?

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20 years old… I am having a sleep study at the end of the month and my doctor is pretty sure I have sleep Apnea, as I am tired all the time and snore really badly. But for the past 4-5 years Ive been experiencing really bad depression and anxiety. This past year has been the worse, as I moved to a new state and my anxiety has turned into what might be social anxiety. I feel nervous and paranoid around people. Always thinking they don’t like me and that they are talking bad about me. Do you think the sleep apnea could have caused this, as I’ve had this sleep problem since I was a child.

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