Ok this is kind of long but can someone please give me some advice. I honestly need help and im very aware of that. Ive asked my mother my father my older sister and my grandmother. Ive struggled with anxiety when i was younger around 17-18 yrs old,i never got help for it.it kind of jus went away.ive also been struggling anorexia\bulimia on and of since ive been about 14. Ive never told anybody i have a eating disorder.im actually slightly over weight but i look healthy and pretty and happy around people. Ive recently moved to FL from Chicago to become a caregiver for my 81 yr old grandma.ive been here exactly 1 year july 7 2011. Its just me and her here all our fam lives in chicago..so that means i get absolutely NO help. She doesnt walk or even dress herself,she crys all the time and complains about every single thing..shes very protective needs to kno wher im goin my license plate number and the # to wher im goin to be. I am 26 yrs old ..she suffers dimenca or however you spell that so shes constanley asking the same questions..i love her so much … But i have a feeling taking care of her is causing all these problems with me..i have recently been loosing my temper badley…ill snap at the smallest thing my heart beats like crazy i cant breath and cant control my actions after that…so ill break thing and throw things ..then after ill have an anxiety attack and cry and hate myself. Ive never been a angry person. My mom keeps telling me go to a doctor but i have no insurance or anything..i feel stuck. Ive recently flew 2 of my friends out to FL from chicago they said i act dif now i have a attitude and i need help.my sister visited me last week and said the same thing. And one last thing 2 months ago i was going threw insomnia (hell) …. Whats goin on with mi? Whats causing me to have these problems? I just want to be normal and happy…pls help thx

Technorati Tags: angry person, anorexia bulimia, anxiety attack, attitude, caregiver, eating disorder, google, grandmother, heart, hell, Insomnia, insurance, license plate number, mom, old grandma, older sister, single thing, snap, temper

For the past week I have been having dreams of me killing people I go to school with. We would get into a argument, and than a fist fight. In the end I would I through them to the ground and stomp on their head until death. I mean, I know that I am a very angry person, but in my dreams, I feel like I had accomplished something good by killing them. Something I would never feel in real life.

What could this mean?

Technorati Tags: angry person, fist fight, google, having dreams, stomp on

I go to bed at 2:30 to 3:00 AM almost every night i and i still don’t fall asleep %40 of time.When i go bed at a more regular time like 12:00-12:30 i will probably only fall asleep 10%-15% of the time. Things are even wrose when school is going on i only get between 5-6 hours of sleep at night sometimes less or no sleep at all. I haven’t had any major tramus in my life, i don’t drink to much caffiene, i exericse EVERYDAY. I have drank a little before at parties and stuff but in past week i have been drinking every night to try and help my self sleep at little easier. I understand this could lead to a serious problem. By some people i am viewed as a very angry person i think my lack of sleep causes my grumpyness and i think that the alcohol makes it even worse. Do you think i have a condition, what do you make of all this?

Technorati Tags: alcohol, angry person, caffiene, google, hours of sleep, lack of sleep, sleep, sleep at night